Lately, I have been pondering on the concept of time. Sometimes time itself, the idea of lost opportunities can cloud our vision. At times we feel compelled to live backwards, at times it i
imprisons us in schedules, meetings, deadlines and due dates. Time can constrain us and limit us but it can also cause a certain amount of organization to our life. Time is slow when you are young but scarily goes quite fast when you are old. Time slows and thickens our eyelids. Time can also make things seem better in hindsight.
Time can encapsulate a certain moment. When you hear a song, smell a certain aroma , when you feel a certain shoe. There you are whooshing back to the time you put on your favorite jacket freshman year or the way you looked as the moonlight spilled out on your friend’s faces.
Time is also a mirage. There are things which surpass time, like our Spirit, and God and love. Love can only deepen with time , even if it is no longer the same kind of love we had before. If we truly love something it goest with us when we die… where time doesn’t really exist anymore.
Our concept of time can also be different from culture to culture. How quickly we lead our lives, how much we care about losing time, how much of a time span goes from one thing to the next. Sometimes, it can cause cultural misunderstandings.
Somehow, in this day and age we have become impatient. We measure things in term of how fast something is, how it takes less time it is somehow efficient. We can no longer sit through the movies that our grandparents used to watch which had a slower pace. We cannot possibly wait more than one minute for a song to download. And this impatience, this anxiety becomes something that imprisons us. We no longer are able to just live, rest , breathe. Drink in. Something is always in the way , we find that life has to have some meaning, or something has to be done to pass the time.
I spend too much time waiting, too much time trying to not be bored. I spend less time efficiently than I should. I grow weary of the grey hairs on my head and think about time past.
We are strong with Time. We use it selfishly, only with the things that matter to us or our loved ones. We use time to be responsible. But very rarely do we use time to do things that benefit people other than ourselves.
And we try to barter with time, we try to stop time we try to steal time. We try our best for others to make time for us. We make time for what we love but we make excuses to make time for what we hate or are afraid of. Giving time to someone you love is the best and most precious gift.
People tell me they don’t have time to read. For that I say, I make time to read while I wait in line, while I am in the bathroom and the bath. I read in the car, I read in the train and in the airport and airplane. I read before I go to bed. I read because I make time for it. Because I love it.
The most painful thing is when we can’t love someone enough to make time for them. I wrote this poem about a boy who could never make time for me, so I stole a second of his time. I wish I had known that I was worth more than a second. In the end, time belongs to no one but God ( if you are religious) and the universe.
( this poem was originally in spanish and flows better in that language sorry!)
The Stolen Second
” If I had the power”
I wondered on a blue striped day
I would rob all your time
I would put you in a universe
Where you exist everywhere and nowhere
And your time would be only mine.
( It was originally in spanish so it makes more sense like that)
But you would be able to come sing unto my windowsill
But if I robbed your time
How could I know how you extend your wings
How could you distinguish the pulsating colors ?
The sun would not paint your song
This is selfish, it is not you
No that time is not mine, but yours..
In a restless night by the moonlight beam
I had a wild solution
I would steal a second
Just a second
Which is yours, only yours.
A little speck,
That second to be placed in the most hidden secret balcony
And in the secret of my secret I would keep it
So that you would not forget me in the universe
A fragment , a thread
Half a note of a song
Would you feel sadness over it’s loss?
Or the business of life would make you unable to remember
Beloved, treasured second
For it is no longer yours, but mine
A second containing the salt
And the breezes of memory
Experiences , sadness
Thinned wings in the infinite cosmos
A voice in the crowd
High tide, low, tranquil turqouise
Chaotic, undefined , perpetual
And inside, so inside when you see it
You can feel
The taste of melancholy
The frenetic energy
A song of the soul
Because it is not just yours, but mine
Just one second,
Writing blunder inconsistencies
With no known knowledge
Big impulsive solid heart
Palpitating in a perpetual rhythm
Constructing experience in marble towers
Second, beloved second
I sang you songs of time
So that you would not mourn the loss of your brothers
But it useless… in vain..
That second… what second?
It disperses like feathers
Because it was never mine, but yours
That second, small second, fragile second
That dies like an orchid
Without being able to feed itself with your memory
And your spiritual battles
And the launch of your neurons
And the beating of your heart
Time does not freeze…
It dies indistinct, in shadow.
And it’s ghost, that flies into the stars
To the cusp of the universe
Because it was never mine, or yours,
It was always of Another
It becomes something else,
That transcends the wall of time,
As the drum of it’s beat is heard
The most secret of secrets
Is enveloped inside a sacrifice
Phoenix, of a sweet voice,
That stretches to the sky, Venus,
Escaping in dreams,
In the infinite waves
And in that second another is born
And another, and another, and another
Life without life
Stars of the same Sky
The Beauty reflected in a soul
The cosmos without cosmos
Because the end has no end
Because it was never mine, or yours,
It was always of Another.
Enjoy this RSA animate cartoon about the secret powers of time which inspired this post.